12:53, Day #2

What is the significance of time? Well let's just say I am learning it right now. And the clock seems to be clicking out of control.

9 Days ago I had to call the "Pharmacy Specialist" of my insurance provider in order to get one of my medications distributed by them....so I did. I gave them all the info they asked for - Dr's name, pharmacy I use locally, date of birth, first child's blood type. You get the drill. the last thing I discussed with them was that I would have chemo on the 13th and would need to take this shot on the 14th...no later than 3:00pm (24 hours after chemo).

the shot is Neulasta - and it increases my white blood cell count. AND......while this may seem a bit odd....it helps me not feel so sick (funny, huh......considering days 3-11). At any rate, I showed up to the pharmacy this morning at 9:30 am - and they DID NOT have it!!! So I flew back to the office and started calling...won't bore you with ALL those details....but I am on hold right now - guess what the "pharmacy specialist" told me? She indicated that they couldn't get the insurance company to do an override. As you can imagine, my response was one of acceptance, patience, kindness, and calm. I informed her, quite eloquently, that this was not my fault - by her OWN admission, they had this prescription since last Wednesday and she didn't know WHY they had not responded. Therefore, the pharmacy needed to make arrangements to pay for the prescription. And now........Now I have been on hold for 13 minutes while she tries to find someone.....and she was back. To tell me that Kate will be calling me shortly.

I see why people give up - they know I have to do this injection within the next 1 hour and 50 minutes....regardles of who pays - which means if I have to pay $600 instead of $60, then I will. And they know that. But what they do not know, is that they have unleashed something they simply will not be able to contend with - you know....some call it having a higher power. I call it Jesus.

And the phone rang again.....Kate is working on it - I have NO IDEA why I am so calm right now (that is such a lie - I know EXACTLY why I am so calm.......God is in control). This is actually a really good feeling.....complete submission - which I did not have at 9:45 this morning when I ran inito David's office BAWLING....

And the phone rang AGAIN....it was Kate - they got it approved. Holy cow God moves fast. What was I thinking? I wish I would have submitted to Him about three hours ago!!! I may have thought twice about eating that Big N Tasty from McDonalds....which I will SOOO pay for later!!!